2 I perceive that ye are weak, that ye cannot understand all my words which I am commanded of the Father to speak unto you at this time.
3 Therefore, go ye unto your homes, and ponder upon the things which I have said, and ask of the Father, in my name, that ye may understand, and prepare your minds for the morrow, and I come unto you again.
This is exactly how I've been feeling this week. I've been overwhelmed by the accounts in chapters 12-17, but I keep thirsting for more and have not wanted the spirit to leave me. I loved feeling the comforting hug from the Holy Ghost confirming to me the truth of these events. I've been continually pondering in my heart the events of my own personal life and have pled with the Lord to help me to align my will with His. My family is going through some really big changes and I want to be assured that they align with the Lord's plans for us because I know all too well the outcome we've had in the past when this was not so. I am completely reliant on the Lord this time around and am leaning wholeheartedly on Him to continue to lead and direct my husband and I in the affairs of our family. That's not always an easy thing. I am always praying that my husband's heart will be softened to be able to accept the will of the Lord as well. He and I have started praying together as husband and wife, separate from our family prayers with the kids. Our prayers are more personal and we are constantly pleading with the Lord to continue to guide us in our family affairs and to help us accept His will. In verses 4-5 when the Savior tells the Nephites that He has to go to His father for He has other sheep to show himself to and the people don't want Him to go, I completely fell apart and was filled with the spirit of the Lord. It's absolutely how I felt at that moment while reading my scriptures and as tired as I was, I wouldn't close them up or put them away because I didn't want my 'spiritual hug' to end. I felt that familiar feeling of missing my heavenly parents as well as my heavenly home and I was in tears, but I continued to thank my father in heaven for my life and the many opportunities afforded me in this mortal life. I am so grateful for the example the Savior set in blessing the children individually by name. How amazing is it that children are so loved by the Savior that angels came down and ministered to them. I held my children a little longer this week and a little tighter because I realized that they are so precious. They are the closest things to heaven that we have here on earth. I'm grateful for such a loving father in heaven who continues to teach me 'line upon line, precept upon precept.' This is the best way to learn. The Lord's way.