Monday, May 11, 2015

Working My Way Back

I'm slowly working my way back to my blog. I can't believe the last time I posted on here was early last year. But then again, I can believe it. Life has gotten so busy with the kids, Hoko and everything in between. So in reality, I was talking with one of the regulars at the gym and she was sharing how overwhelmed she's been with everything going on in her life. Both of our daughters are in gymnastics together as well and she's trying to figure out some kind of balance between all of the extracurricular activities her kids are involved in as well as the ones she's involved in. She runs a blog, homeschools her six kids, runs them around to their different activities and so forth. As she was explaining her life, I completely felt for her. This was me last year. Aaliyah had started sports and played all year, baby Hoko started football, which all in itself was time consuming, Sila and Polu were in gymnastics, Savou and Jordan were still home so I took them to discovery time at the library weekly, I was totally fitness focused and had these crazy goals I was working towards, all while still being a mom who cooked dinner six nights a week, was in school full time while juggling a calling at church and trying to be a great wife. Yes great, not just good. I love my husband and he deserves a great wife cause he's a great husband. I've had to figure out some kind of balance, which turns out to be me needing to do my best and not being so hard on myself. I've loosened my grip on being a clean eating nazi and yes, I've totally put on weight. But I'm ok with that. I don't want to isolate myself because of those things. I'd much rather veg out with my kids and create memories. I still workout religiously, but that's really cause I enjoy it so much. It's become a part of who I am. I'm still trying to drop 20 lbs so I can be completely comfortable in my own skin, but I've decided to put time on my side. No more working against it cause that drives me crazy. No deadlines just figuring out what makes me happy and holding onto those things. I'm grateful for my husband and kids for always supporting me in all the crazy things I do. I'm their #1 fan and love watching them learn and grow in so many things! I'm totally ready for school to be out. I wanna enjoy summer making memories with my kids. And I'm excited for it!